Several of my best friends seem to be doing things lately:

• Tim called me today from France. He said he was at a group dinner, and the people he was with were being obnoxious and he just got in one of those moods, you know. Where you have to step out for air and call someone just to talk. He was in London, and took a ferry to Normandy and saw sick D-Day shit and told me about it. He's perusing France now and will go to Italy some time. I am happy he chose to call me.
• Last time I spoke with Eric, he was going to train for some sort of crazy marathon down in the keys. Friends with friends who know some trainers. I don't even know. He's into that stuff, but I'm happy for him, it's summer, everyone should be training for marathons in the keys this summer.
• Jon's Liz is down now, and of course he is saying how it's boring and a typical Liz visit. But fuck, at least someone is visiting and he can actually go places with them and have adventures.
• Jacob spent a week at Lake Chelan in Washington going on bike rides, wine tasting tours, long drives, sail boats, racing boats, a cabin, swimming, and just so many outdoors awesome activities. Then sent me a picture of the goddamn place, it's ridiculously beautiful.

There was a possibility of me going to Connecticut for a month, but it's seeming like it's not going to happen. Which leaves 2 months open.

I don't know what I'm going to do, where I'm going to go, I'm poor, and doubting everything I previously thought I could do and vise versa. Everything is jumbling, mushing, melting, and it's got me bummed right now.