knot comes loose

It's weird the way people work. It's getting hotter and I'm becoming blonder. Spring break is next week and I could never want something so much. Why would ______ tell me he's going to be alone for the first two days, and then probably miss everyone. That he gets too attached to people so he'll definitely miss them. What do I do about that? Or am I really supposed to, I don't know. Something needs to come of this soon. I need to spend a day writing letters and laying on the floor of my room at my moms. The weather is ridiculous and I'm going roller blading for the first time in a month or so after school with Jeanne. It was good to see her again the other day. I remember I dreamt something important these past couple of nights, but I can't remember what they are. I drove to my grandma's and she never showed. Jon misses me and I miss him.